I am being hearter smarter by having french fries and hanging out on this here blog. I am sometimes tempted to mindlessly socialize or drink booze. This will get me nowhere fast. I don't really feel that I can depend on people that much lately. Seems like I'm getting seperated and blown apart and put back together. I see it as natural. Life goes in cycles from problem to problem and hopefully the problems get more and more managable, but problems won't just simply get obliterated. The comforts of life make it all so much more bearable and I must keep it in mind that though things can feel awful there is always so much beauty and wonder in the world. As long as I focus on this and continue to write, life should be fine.