I am happy that we don't have to be happy together. That I can be happy by myself. That I don't need you to be happy about myself. It would seem like folly since you are unable to understand me. I can be an enigma even to myself. Yet lately great things are happening inside of me, to my "self esteem" I'm okay with myself with out you and need you was like needing glue. For a while you were good, but then I noticed you were holding me down with your sadistic smile. I can't stand for that anymore. I know there is plenty of real love for me someday, someday over the rainbow way up high.