I can't decide what I wish for this year as I turn 46 or 36 or 26 or 16 or 6

I suppose I am I still just looking for the ultimate light bulbs and energy sources.  Being six I thought there where 1000 new to things and as I get older that seems to shrink, but my inner world magnifies that smaller world into something worth while.  So this year I am into doing the opposite of shrinking.  It is a year for balloons to become the kind of balloons that take me on voyages, and not so risky now.